Right now, I've been feeling as though i'm left out. People coming towards me just for help and whenever i do, they just dont respond until a very long time later. It's very frustrating and I'm startin to think that I'm being the one casted away; as if im unwanted. This isn't the only time it's been happenin to me, probably the 4th. Not only dat, I feel as though i'm getting farther and farther away from the warmth of these friends of mine. Am i not interesting enough or is it cuz i keep miself a lil too distant. I'm not sure, but I'm becoming to be bored. I mean, today wuz fun cuz it wuz fun to hang out with them and play monopoly and joke around. Idk anymore. I feel as if i should just branch away, but whenever, I do that, those who i have been friends with believe i'm just casting them away.
Like b4, during freshman yr, I did dat to the ppl i first hung out with. However, as more came over, I felt rather the same way. Which is y i left and went instead to the library; where i met the ppl who i'm befriending now. soon though, there wuz a food fight and when i wuz frustrated cuz i never got 2 see it. One of the former friends that I sat nxt seemed bitter and said, "cuz u dont' come by the lunch room anymore" I felt disturbed as if he had a grudge against that.
I don't know, what im going to do. for now, though, i'm just gonna go with the flow: if it doesn't work out, then I'll just branch out again.
