talent show DONE

lol, dis morning i just woke up, dat it's a brand new day feeling great!!! lol, i think it's probably because i just finished the talent show yesterday.  even though, i messed up a bit due to nervousness, MANY PPL SAID I DID SPECTACULAR AND FROM DAT, IM SO PROUD OF MISELF.  I sang, someone like you by adele in the low version :)  lol, but im not gonna do the nxt one if they hav another dis yr cuz i don't have time xD  omg, those blinding lights and the crowd, omg, scared me, but I DID IT YESSS!!!! lol, it kind of sucks dat mi act wuz in the middle cuz i wanted to see the whole show.  the ppl who hadn't performed had to stay within the teacher's lunchroom.  omg, it wuz so nerve-wracking and fun to hang out with mi co-performers, lol we fooled around in the back as we were waiting for our turns to go up on stage.

i will never forget dis experience, it wuz just too awesome!!! i remembered a girl who wuz 2 yrs under me, she wuz so funni and adorable lol, she's a yaoi fan and lol a fan of kpop.  YOOOOO, HER KOREAN VOICE WUZ JUST 2 AMAZING OMG, SHE SOUNDED LIKE THE REAL ONE, i think it wuz a kpop by shinee or something like dat.  and another girl also the same age, sang bleeding love, SHE DID SO WELL IN THE REHEARSAL OMG, I WUZ SO PROUD OF HER. nah, but wat surprised me wuz dat she JUST DIDN'T HAVE THE INSTRUMENTAL.  YYYYYYYYY omg, and during the actual talent show, the second highest part, she didn't go like really high. but i can understand y though, it's hard to do dat with heels and on stage.  and esp in front of so many ppl, dat aint easy. OH YEH, WHICH REMINDS ME, DIS PISSED ME OFF: THE AUDIENCE WELL, NOT ALL, BUT A LOT WERE BEING SO DAMN RUDE. LIKE SERIOUSLY, THESE PPL B PERFORMING FOR U GUYS AND U JUST B TALKIN WITH UR FRIENDS OR ON UR PHONES, LIKE REALLY GUYS? DAT BEING MAN DISRESPECTFUL.  like seriously, im pretty sure if they were the ones performing their act up their, they wouldn't like dat. ugh.
     
lol, i think fate must be messing wit me when i wuz done, cuz lol, after i finished i went to the auditorium to watch the rest. when i turned to talk to madeline and Richard another, 2 AWESOME SINGERs, one sang crazier and the other i believe i can fly.  lol, as i wuz saying, as i turned to talk to them, guess who i saw? LOL, IT WUZ THE GUY I HAD LIKED. LMFAO, even though there were like 3 sections, right, middle, and left, we were in the same row.  he would catch mi attention for some time, but then after dat, i had just talked to ppl as they complimented and praised me :D.  well, and then i hung out wit addy and ate at a Mexican place with her xD. well, dat's it for now, damn, im in a great mood, tah tah for now.

feeling a bit down

heyyy over here.  i dont no, i just came back from mi talent show practice, and i think dat's got 2 b one of the worst peformances i've ever done ;'(
i brought over a song dat had adele as mi chorus, and i wuz awkward with mi audience and mi peers; maybe the stress is just getting 2 me lately.  idk, but i feel like i've let them down.  I don't want 2 let them down, and I WILL SUCCEED WITH DIS TALENT SHOW.  and also, lol, dis is the first time im goin 2 sing a song partly cuz of a love that i've had.  well, even though it's been a week, and it wuz fun 2 hav these feelings, i'm so definetly gonna move on after singing dis.  oh yeh, i 4got 2 tell u; so dont worrri, and i'll explaine everything so dat u wont get confused.

i got rejected and then i wuz gonna move on but since i haven't like some1 for A REALLY LONG TIME, i wanted to savor the moment of likin him u no?  like seriously, took damn 3 YEARS, and IM GONNA B BUSY LATER ON. soo i might as well have fun with dis :D  i wuz planning 2 have dis feeling until the talent show sooo, well watever. LOL, i no dat wuz a real short story.  oh it turns out, he's actually comin 2 the talent show, i just hope he doesnt figure out dat i wuz singin it partly 4 him; cuz then dat'll b awkward.  definetely awkward for me lol.  lol, mi friend just asked me y, i should move on.  i mean, she has a point, but i dont wanna have hope later on, and besides, i dont got the time to b daydreamin bout somebody when i got work 2 do LOL.  well, i gtg soooo byeeee

BOOKS TO READ

Need to READ:

The Five People You Meet in Heaven

Tuesdays with Morrie

The Last Lecture

Wuthering Heights

Have Read:

1984

Brave New World

Failin Italy

Well, dis pretty much sucks. I found out 2day dat I didn't make it in the Italy competition, even though I worked hard for it ugh.  *cries* lol, jk.  I mean even though I'm kinda disappointed, at least I can enter dat other program of mine without regrets.  Nah, but I did wished dat I got in at least.  Well, it pretty much sucks dat I didn't get in.  Oh well, imam cheer up.  There's always more opportunities to come.  :) IMMA GET U GUYS LOL.  Nah, but I have this other program of mine that's kinda rare and yesss, free THANK GOD.  I chose to do the medical thing though, cuz mi grades seem pretty good and im interested in the medical field.  It's like a nursing thing, and I chose it cuz u no it could b pretty useful so when I really need it, I can just use the skills they've taught me.  Nah, but here's the killer part. UGH.  You gotta type an essay. WHICH I'M BAD AT.  UGHHHH. YYYYYYYYY? I wuz hoping dat the shoo-in would b the interview but unfortunately, dat doesn't seem to b the case.  Oh well, Im still gonna do the essay.  Even though it's kind of a let down to see dat we gotta write an essay.  I aint gonna shy away from the challenge. TIME TO GET U, AND CONQUERR U!!! YO, DUDE U GOT DIS. well, im out so see yah.

This WEEK

This week, lol, I hav spent more than I have ever done in mi last 16 yrs.  I spent like 60 bucks, which is believe me quite a record LMFAO. DATS HOW CHEAP I AM THOUGH.  Well, its cuz the first part wuz like a trip to New Rock City and freakin thing cost me like 30 something dollars.  Words of advice, bring like 50 LMFAO.  this aint the right place for someone to budget.  jeez, I spent so much on the arcade WHICH WUZ LIKE HEAVEN. I SWEAR THE MINUTE I SET MI EYES ON DAT ARCADE, I FELL IN LOVE WITH IT. IT WUZ JUST DAT BEAUTIFUL. but ugh, most of the games are like 250 credits or like $2.5 so I wuz just freaking out.  It turns out I totally forgot bout mi budget and ended up spending more cuz I wanted to ride the go-karts xD.  The go karts are like what I think like 10 dollars per person maybe.  yo, there wuz a line too so try to go early.  OH MY GOD, its a good thing we went at like 12:00 cuz when we wer bout to leave THERE WERE SO MANY PPL.  so another piece of advice, try to get there earlier PLZ.  nah, and also their food is expensive so when ur done playin around, go outside DONT B LAZY and u'll end up saving a lot. like I remember we just walked around a bit and we found this café costing like around 10 dollars.  It wuz actually worth it though mi bro had to pay for me.  They gave me a lot of fries and a good decent sized burger :D
       
oh yeh, almost forgot. it turned out I won a bid of buyin a console 2ds. LOL, my bros finally convinced me to buy it. HOPE IT DOESNT TURN OUT TO BE SO SUCKISH. cuz then i'll be like level 100 pissed.  lol, instead of buyin it from the official website, I got too cheap expectantly.  So I got a bid which wuz like about 10-20 dollars less. Hey, as long I'm saving, I'm pretty happy :D.  Now im just trying to win dis bid of the pokemon x. hope it doesn't turn out expensive, cuz if it does, imam just buy it from mi bro.  either that or just target THANK GOD FOR TARGET. 10 DOLLARS CHEAPER THAN GAME STOP . *doing the Charlie brown dance*
well, lets just hope I win this bid too hehehe

WELL, RIGHT NOW TODAY, I just came back from mi friend's game night event.  It was pretty fun lol, I haven't hung out with mi friend for a long time so I decided to just go and meet up with them. LOL, I have to say though, I AM SO HORRIBLE IN VIDEO GAMES LMFAO. even the one that mi bro has and now I barely play, I SO EASILY LOST. lol, mayb I should train for the nxt game night. it wuz pretty fun, I met new ppl and talked to them. one of them wuz so adorable, and I wuz surprised to find out dat she wuz younger than me. YAY, I'M SO GLAD TO FIND ANOTHER YAOI OTAKU FAN KYAAAA. we instantly clicked and she' pretty cool.  lol, and me and angel just b talkin bout weird things and personal experiences like confessions and perverted stuff LMFAO
lol, but one thing for sure, imam bring board games nxt time, u no, so dat when the guys are just playing, some of us wont feel left out u no.

TROUBLE

LMFAO, right now in the school  library.  I wish i should'nt gone 2 school cuz of dat damn blizzard! Stupid Di Blasio! like seriously, WE ARE NOT PENGUINS!!!! nah, but i guess, i hav 2 say in a way, i am thankful that i came along.  I ditched all of my classes except AP English, and Trigonometry and well, lol soon coming  Pre-Calculus! I am not sure if i should go 2 physics though. I SWEAR HATE THAT CLASS. the teach is nice, and everything, BUT I AM GETTING SO IRRITATED CUZ I AM NOT UNDERSTANDING CURRENTLY WAT'S GOING ON IN DAT STINKIN CLASS!!!! KFJSOFKEJF yep, dat's just pissed i am at dat class ugh.  Nah, but the reason, i gotta b grateful, cuz *drumroll* I WENT 2 THE FORBIDDEN ROOF!!! TROLOLOLOLOLOLOL

OMG, even though it wuz freaking freezing, i went with Chris a classmate of mine in Physics who's really cool.  he showed me to the roof and though, i figured out dat it wuz forbidden 2 go thru when he swung the door open and urged to cover mi face cuz there's a camera and quickly shut the door.  even so, i went up with him.  Oh my god, even though i broke the rules, I AM WELL CURRENTLY NOT REGRETTING IT!!!! lol, im pretty sure i might later on though if i get caught.  My entire lower part below the knee joint wuz covered in icy snow, BRRRRRRRR.... LOL, dat and the chill wind.  nah, but me and chris had a snow ball fight and let's face it: I WON. LMFAO, nah, just kidding, it wuz fun and a tie! mi boot had ice in them though; so it wuz DAMN COLD! nah, but when we went to the edge of the roof outer wall, we kinda tiptoed to get a better look to look over. OMG, DAT VIEW WUZ BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!! lol, the cars and the ppl leaving looked so tiny, and u could see the pale but bright sun overlooking the clear white undisturbed snow and the lol the black concrete. OMG, SHOOOT GTG, UGH PERIOD JUST ENDED BYEEEEE

Upset And Alone

Right now, I've been feeling as though i'm left out.  People coming towards me just for help and whenever i do, they just dont respond until a very long time later.  It's very frustrating and I'm startin to think that I'm being the one casted away; as if im unwanted.  This isn't the only time it's been happenin to me, probably the 4th.  Not only dat, I feel as though i'm getting farther and farther away from the warmth of these friends of mine.  Am i not interesting enough or is it cuz i keep miself a lil too distant.  I'm not sure, but I'm becoming to be bored.  I mean, today wuz fun cuz it wuz fun to hang out with them and play monopoly and joke around.  Idk anymore.  I feel as if i should just branch away, but whenever, I do that, those who i have been friends with believe i'm just casting them away.

Like b4, during freshman yr, I did dat to the ppl i first hung out with.  However, as more came over, I felt rather the same way.  Which is y i left and went instead to the library; where i met the ppl who i'm befriending now.  soon though, there wuz a food fight and when i wuz frustrated cuz i never got 2 see it. One of the former friends that I sat nxt seemed bitter and said, "cuz u dont' come by the lunch room anymore"  I felt disturbed as if he had a grudge against that.

I don't know, what im going to do.  for now, though, i'm just gonna go with the flow: if it doesn't work out, then I'll just branch out again.